Returning to work for me has meant returning to a constant state of anxiety. This is not good. During my time off I was able to restore balance by exercise, eating healthy and rest. Now throw in the inconvenience of a job (LOL) and I’m completely off course again. Oddly enough I didn’t even realize it until last night. I drove home wondering what was wrong with me. Being anxious was no longer the norm and I didn’t want it to be.
I find myself needing to restructure my life to include all of the above along with work and ministry. It’s called life but I haven’t functioned this way. I’ve been in survival-mode for much of the year and now that I can relax I find it difficult to do so. Also, the trial for my brother’s death begins on Friday. All the more reason to find balance and embrace a positive way of dealing with stress and anxiety.
In regards to my previous entry on “morning pages” I’ve had to dissolve this. It’s much too time consuming. I’m already trying to figure out how to incorporate morning workouts prior to work and lets not forget devotional time. This is where my sanity comes from (smile). I figured if I moved it to evenings then I may as well write a journal entry and call it a day. What do you think? Do you have time in the morning for morning pages and everything else in life?